The Big Whinery

When you are truly getting burnt out on whatever it is you are doing, it does not just feel like you are tired, or cranky. This weekend marked the (literally) 10th show I have worked\acted in a row, starting in April of 2003.

I have reached the level of being at odds with all things. I can say with full honesty that right now I have problems at home, with my lady, with a few of my friends, with work, and with the show itself (don't get me wrong, the show itself is terrific. Its the backstage that is driving me.....)

I cant finish that thought, because if I didnt get a break this week, and a full respite for the next few months, I dont really know what would happen. I know yesterday, after a few more needles under my nails from various cast members (all college kids, surprisingly (not really), 99.9% girls) I told my fellow stage manager I didnt think I could handle it. Not that I would ever dream of walking away or anything, but I told her if any of the following cast members walk towards me, I might break down and curl into a fetal position (I wont include the list here, but lets just say they have sex for money in the show.) Allow me to include the transcript of a conversation I had with an actor on Saturday night.

Actor: Is the door to the stage-left entrance open?
Me: Uh, I cant see it, Im not sure. Probably not.
Actor: But the director wants me to enter from there....
Me: ............Can you open the door?
Actor: But it doesn't open out!
Me: ..........................
..........................
Can you open it in? Im not sure what you're asking.
Actor: (sighs and storms off)

This is a great illustration of the not-exact anger, but general bizarre and confusing feeling that has filled me to the brim.

Once again, I really have to say that there are some great, funny actors in this thing. The leads are all wonderful, and have great attitiudes, so far as they deal with me. This is definitely not the first show where the non-principles have more attititude than the principles, but I think its taking the lead as one of the greats.

But, again, it is not the shows fault that I am getting tired of doing what I love most. I dont have any regrets in my life, not one. I would not give away a show Ive worked on for all the mexican food in a chinese porn store. But Its my own fault I feel this way. Oh well.

Come see the show, there's nearly naked chicks, VERY funny situations, and terrific Co-stage management.